Not Just Like Any Other !

I am a very selective person. I accept nothing but the best.Best for me,I mean. (it's all subjective you see)
Compromise doesn't exist in my dictionary and like Mercedes says
'The best or nothing!'
But that doesn't mean that I am a very Pompous person. I am one of the most simple persons you may come across.
I can eat the same kind of food for all my life.
I can sleep on just one simple mat.
No Pillow or bedsheets.
We used to sleep this way in N.C.C.
So got used to it. Its actually healthy if you look at it,the flatter and harder the surface you sleep the tougher the body will be.
If you are in that fluffy beds then sooner your bodies will also soon turn into big pillows,one front and one back!
And many such things which make me low in expense and high on expanse of non materialistic things!More on it some other time.


Ya,so wassup? Such a boring weekend I tell you,I have spent counting leaves can you believe it?
No not the leaves on a tree but some artificial orchids!
So yeah as boring as it was by the end of the week it was Ganesh Nimarjan! So made it up for it up for all the gloom
I am disgustingly lucky no?
I know.I wouldn't call it luck,rather I would call it karma.At the starting of the weekend I happened to distribute food to the poor of a nearby slum,as a part of 'Annadan' we do every year,we normally call only our colony people and do the ritual but this year I was the one in-charge and I saw to it that the food was distributed to the needy.
I said to our organiser,"Apne colony walo ki already bhari hui hai,pet.
(For the angrezs out there I said our colony people belly is already full,so let's feed the empty stomachs,the poor)

Yeah, the world is round they say and  I had some outdoor work recently and was so busy that couldn't have breakfast or lunch,the good news was that I hadn't had dinner previous night as well,wow!
So I was famishing and when I finally left from work one security guard standing near parking asks."Bhaiyya Khana khaoge?" I thought a newly opened hotel promoter he was,its very common in Hyderabad.I said nahi thank you.Then he said "thoda sa kha lo"Then I thougt 'Kaale mein much dal hai' No restaurant promotes this way
 I went in and to my pleasant surprise saw,it was Bappa sitting majestically on the pedestal and the annadan was on.I looked at him for few seconds joined hands(mine),touched feet(his)and headed for prashad.
Karma,my friend is very tricky but sometimes it's so simple that we cannot understand it.Think about it.

In another news our Nautanki cum Chamiya,Narendra Modi met the top CEO's of the world and 'discussed' how to empower India.I don't know how they discussed without even a  translator 'cause our prime minister's English is Mashallah and the CEO's Hindi is Subhanallah.
I wrote something about the Digital India initiative which was the outcome of this meetings have a read.
https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=1638035896437871&id=100006944281311&ref=bookmarks

A Splatter of Positivity!:)

There is a way the universe works.Its what is called  the Law of Attraction.
Whatever vibes you pass into the space they come back to you in some or the other form,mostly magnified.
There was so much negativity I had to go through recently that I thought to equal the yin and yang in the atmosphere.
Fortunately few positive developments helped me achieve it.Raksha Bandhan helped me dissolve the bitterness I was carrying for some time.
Like I said earlier I am the Eldest of the million cousins I have and each sister tying one rakhi meaning the no.of rakhis will almost reach my upper arm.
My hand was looking more like that tree in temples and dargahs where you tie that thread wishing something,the one you see in 'Bhar de jholi meri' song
And by the way what a sensible movie Kabir khan has made.Salman almost acted convincing in that movie.
And that li'le rabbit harshali was so cute!Too good for the very first movie.

So yeah I was talking about my tree I mean hand. There's this youngest cousin of mine whose family paid an unexpected visit and I wasn't ready for her gift after Rakhi tying ritual(mind you we are not supposed to give money!)
So I searched my room to fnd anything to give to  some 3 or 4 year old.
PlayStation? nah. Oscar Wilde books?Man first let her learn proper alphabets!
Watch?Usey time dekhke office ya collegecollege thodi jaana hoga?
Kids kids kids what do they like?
Dolls,Toys and something on those lines And god was kind enough and I did not find any of these!
Then I found a palm sized  maroon and cream coloured bag which I bought long ago and it was very dear to me,I don't know why but I gave her that gift
and she liked it so much that she showed around to her parents and friends.The happiness which I saw in that toddler's eyes that day made my day and it felt like my  stomach filling up and heart warming up.
I thought it was just a small bag then why was she so happy about it,
then i understood that I gave her not just the gift but also my feelings of attatchement and affection for that thing which transferred to her when she received it.
I believe in spreading smiles,no matter even if iam crying a thousand tears inside.

I went to a church the other day to receive a friend and during mean time I had a small chat with one of their pastors,we discussed about spirituality, Jesus's life,contemporary world problems and so on.Then I asked him that why does god gives so many obstacles,difficulties to good people,his reply was:Son,because he loves you.
Yeah right, he loves me.I'm convinced.
Why do I have work so hard for something which others get it easy? Why me?
Then he goes on to say few things which were more of a praises of me.
When god blessed you with so many positive things you never questioned him asking why me?
Then how irrationality you can ask him when he puts few hurdles to extract the best from you.
I thought, point to be noted my lord!
That answered all my questions.

An important lesson what I have learnt is that when your instinct says someone is right they mostly are.
When any person tried to think ill for you once in your life they are most likely to continue the same for the rest of their lives.And when you hit back strongly they behave like people wanting to reconcile but actually they are waiting for you to cool down and when they find you vulnerable they try to attack with all what they've  got.
But little do they know that a wise person doesn't have vulnerabilities and like aadarniya Hulk Shreeman says in that bhakti ras movie 'Avengers'
"I'm always angry!".


On a serious note, count your blessings.
Give and receive love not via blue tooth  but through genuine good wishes and respect for each other.
Fill the heart with positivity so much that negativity finds no place to live inside.

Its been 4!

My baby has finished 4 years in blogging world!Oh I'm so excited!
My blog,my pride.
I never did this before. All these years.Never in four years of our relationship but its now to me to acknowledge what it has given me.Platform and Punching bag.Yes that's what it has given me.
I started this blog as a timepass,at least I'm admitting it!I know its the same with many.I think I've mentioned this before as well that I came here to itch out the writer in me and nothing else mattered to me.Not a blogger but writer .That's why you don't see me following anyone and as it might not be surprising that i don't have any followers as well.
You know na our blogger world behaviour 'You scratch my balls and I'll scratch yours!'
I wanted to keep my balls Private!
Anyways,so I just penned down the ones which Inspired me,which stirred an emotion in me, which I thought I can't live without putting it down on paper,virtual of course.
Srinidhi a very good writer and a human being.It was through her blog I came across you people!
Srinidhi,thank you very much
you have given me chance to meet some really good writers.I owe this to you.

Well,coming to my initial days of blogging I was just like any other everything and everyone  was new.
I just needed a medium to quench the thirst.
So I first drank a glass of water and started writing!what?what did you expect?!
Just a traveler I was who took the notes if my experience in whatever way I could find.I had this natural flow with me as I worked as a writer for a magazine under some anonymous.
So it helped a bit here.
 I read all the to do's of a blogger on how they can follow each other and update each other's posts and how we can comment our  opinion on their post,I found this quite amazing.

I commented on few posts of fewer people which I thought were genuine write-ups and which appealed to me.
Writing matters to me more than writer,I wouldn't think twice to appreciate even my enemy if I think they have done commendable job.

As far as my writing goes,I always look for that spark and if its there I would air it into a forest fire!
I would be lying if I said I did it all on my own,the vintage bloggers were there to help!
I appreciate their good will to help me out in the initial days.
But on another note,trying to put down other's writing or blog in general, I found that quite surprising and upsetting.
I never compare anyone's anything(writing especially) to mine,that's not my character.Your belief in yourself should be so strong that no newbie should be able to  change it.Stick to your stengths,that's what I do,who cares how does my blog look or how many pageviews I got(by the way I discovered this feature only few months back!) But I don't delve into all that because sajna sajaana is not my cup'a tea.
And by the way I think many want to know why Pink template?
the reason is I have always been a sensitive person,I detect genuine emotions and feelings like a police bitch,I mean dog!
Faking it with me will not work out.
The reason is not some supernatural power but because you are reading a behavioural psychology graduate.
So pink is  basically my sensitive side which I proudly display.

Now some other blogging related things.Few things happened during this mean journey.I have lost cool and the gates to my anger broke loose and I have warned them in a very strong desi language.I don't regret it,they asked for it.
I respect women and like Shahrukh uncle says I bow down to three women in my life1)Mataji 2)My Ma and....

BUT if someone takes my goodness for granted and brings in my or my family name,then like they say in Hyderabadi "Gardan Pe Haath Aur G@#% Pe Laat"
You must have met many bad men in your life but now you are meeting their dad.Beware.

Moving On... I happened to meet many genuine and intellectual kind of people her as well.When I started blogging it was a lot of male bashing happening majority of the writers targeted men in name of feminism. I am not against feminism, Infact I support it.I dont think so you become a feminist by abusing male.Because there are some bastards out there who live like animals that does not mean the entire male being is the same way.I support feminism which talks of women empowerment. I support feminism which talks of gender equality,I repeat equality not higher than men or anything less.Feminism shouldn't turn you into a man.Women can bring revolution by being themselves.Indira Gandhi is just one example.

Why should anyone or anything influence your choices?
They are just living their lives and you have full freedom to live yours.
I always have this thing in my mind running "So What?" Or like our sadda Punjabi says "Sannu Ki!"

"Jo Bole So Nihal Satsri Akaal!"

Love Me Thoda Aur...!!!

The heart has broken,tears have flown and the soul has drenched in it
but guess what I am okay...
The man who I considered  as a Pillar has collapsed.
When I look at him I used always say"Unka jeevan ek misaal(example)tha aur woh khud ek missile the...RIP(Return if possible) Mr.Kalam.

You know what I am not going to cry for you again for I know you wanted the young men of this country to wipe the tears of those helpless who cry.Iam stronger than ever before,iam more determined than I ever was.Stubborn
,I was born but now no mercy,no compromise.

This morning I was having my breakfast at a regular joint and I saw the uncle,owner was very sad I inquiried what was wrong and he said,kuch nahi beta meri budhiya ki tabiyat theek nahi hai bas isiliye man nahi lag raha tha."I also came to know that he hadn't eaten anything because she couldn't eat anything.I thought do such kind of people also exist?
When I was younger I used to look at that 90's love and think how beautiful it is but when I wanted to love in today's generation it was more like some race or competition like who has the better of the other and they show off.The love is only there to show off on network websites in reality the essence of love is gone,everything is so materialistic.People used to live and die for one...
and today hookups are as fast as fashion.Its just,comfortable living together not living to love.When is the time to love both are so busy either the meeting is for sex or fight.We could manage to live the unadulterated childhood of 90's but unfortunately couldn't enjoy the fresh and unselfish love of that era.The problem is we can't do much about it as well.The cost we have to pay for living such comfortable, so comfortable that it is sometimes suffocating.
Its just that to put it crudely,today's attitude is something like using tissue paper,Use and discard.
A girl someone who can Understand.There are many who love but to understand your loved one takes lot of wisdom.

The Society Saga Continues...

This is a continuation of the society post.Today i read an article in TOI how Narendra modi has started to become "fashion icon".Our last prime minister couldn't speak.The latest prime minister only speaks!
Yeah we're getting there!
India is a democratic cum secular country means people choose their leaders and none will be preferred on religious basis.Yes,religion such a deep and influential subject especially in terms of Indian politics,how?
i'll tell you.India is a country where religions such as hinduism,buddhism,jainism,sikhism etc have taken birth but you find all types of people with various religious backdrops stay here.

But on a statistical level hindus account for a majority of the population and to get a majority govt.these hindu vote banks are more than enough.BJP encashes on this pulse and has recently won on this basis,not a big deal if everything is organised properly and sure the BJP did and got to the power.
In India "People don't cast their vote,they vote their caste".

The congress strategy is different it attracts the down trodden and lower caste people and attracts them with offers which they cannot refuse(God father huh?Yes!).The congress doesn't have a strong leadership,thanks to baby rahul roy,sorry gandhi rahul gandhi.That's the reason you are supposed to stop watching cartoon channels after specific age!

When i worked as a Journalist for TV9 i actually got the oppurtunity to attend these parties(bjp,congress,c.p.m,c.p.i.m,) meetings where only media could be allowed and i can tell you for sure that i saw the state/central politics unfolding in front of my eyes

The experience of working as a journalist is just one of a kind where you are given cameraman and you are supposed to bring  the news for that day,you suddenly feel responsible for the whole state because in A.P and Telangana states this is the top watched and highest rated channel and i cannot tell you the vibrations you feel when you are holding that mike and questioning the netas with an attitude like what the fuck are you doing man!
I am the boss here and you supposed to be answerable to me.If there is any one person that even the prime minister fears it is the journalist.
When i was new i was told that i don't have to be nice to these bastards(politicians) ask the questions as if they owe you something and haven't re-payed.(actually in practical application that's true, they own public money)
That power to question the biggest leaders of the political field is just out of this world experience!
Then after the interview is over you are supposed to write the script for that particular and meanwhile look the tape in which you have recorded the interview you are supposed to cut into parts and mention in script from which time to which it should be telecasted(bits we call),three to four parts like these are to be written and should be given for ingestion,person in charge.Some of my stories which i did which gave me good recognition was a contoversy which showed brahmins in a derogatory way and the time when south star chiranjeevi bacame the Central minister for Tourism.
I was right in the congress party office where they distributed sweets,danced like baaratis!cracked crackers.We,the journalists were invited for lunch.Providing lunch or breakfast is mandatory whenever there is any press meet.
For some weeks i was given the night duty at charminar near bhagyalaxmi temple,a sensitive area where the riot could be broken any time,and we came to know that the channel has already appointed few news reporters,unofficially,the local young men who were just kind of khabris to bring the inside news of that area so that we can have some 'exclusive' breaking news,those nights looking at the beautifully lit charminar and the uncertain situations has kept us on our toes and the time when ganesh festival and ramzan coincided,it was like an india-pakistan match final over,high tension!
As much i have learnt and explored the state politics from such a close level and getting the oppurtunity to interview the top guns in the political field i left the job because,it was a life of a nomad and though i liked the adventure,recognition,name,fame,money etc etc but i did not give an oppurtunity to show the real me to the world,you are supposed to be working under some set instructions and guidelines. I did not  like that you can show me how to work but not what to work on.There our egos slash principles clashed and i resigned.
I did not do Mass Communication but I became a Journalist.Achievement? Hell Yes!
But Compromising on my Principles? Hell No!

So much for my experience!!! Moving on... Ya i look at people of my country and think yaar ye itne bhole kyun hai?kuch kar guzar ne ki inme himmat kyu nahi hai?Mediocrity has mixed into our DNA.
almost two centuries of slavery hasn't still left our system.

You know what makes me most angry? The mindset of we indians.Koi bhi hindutwa ke naam pe pradhan mantri bannna chahta hai and we give him the highest honour.Agar hindutwa ka itna hi dil mein tere jazba hai toh ab tak ayodhya mein Ram mandir kyu nahi banaa? Did anyone care or dare to ask?
What's the account of your one year work?
 Bas we voted and he will look after everything don't forget he is from the land of  businessmen and with country he's doing just that.
Governments here get elected based on religious preferences.Modi sahab aapne desh ki yuva ko sapne toh dikha diye par yeh bhi bataa dijiye ke unhe neend se kab jagaane wale hai?
Smart city banaayenge?Bijli-Paani wale gaaon kab aayenge yeh bhi bataa dijiye?
Yahaa pe desh me kisan atma hatya kar rahe hai aur aap Mongolia ko 1bn$ ka karza dete hai?Paisa kiske pitaji ke jeb se aa raha hai kripiya batayenge?
After one year the poverty level is the same.Swacch bharat ke naam se toh apna ghar saaf Karne ka sabak toh sikhaya par un lakho ka kya jinke pass ghar hi nahi hai?
Free mein itne saare bank account khulvaye aur naam rakha Jan dhan.Bina paiso ke sirf khaali account ka kya achar banayenge?
I wish Atal ji aaj swasth hote toh is mahashay ka koi chance nahi tha.
I just had this weird idea of guessing
Who would the voters of India choose if Mr.A.P.J.Abdul Kalaam would contest against Mr.Modi?

A thing of mere common sense,a person who cannot even walk properly-a crippled person.And then take the person who can walk and survive on his own.Who among the above two need help?
The obvious choice is the crippled one.Yes but here modi and his government want to give a vehicle to the normal healthy person so that he can speed away even faster,actually if he works bit harder he can get on his own he doesn't need your help but that's not the case with the crippled one he definitely needs your help or else he cannot move forward.
The crippled person above are the villages of our country which are literally dying because of lack of help and this government is trying to clean the asses of cities.
Because villagers are ignorant?because they don't dare to ask anything? because they are helpless?because they trusted you?Yes Modi?
I hate this guy not because he is the person of a criminal record because he has shown us the dreams and is now busy living his dreams.
Enjoying the limelight Modi? Getting all the attention?huh?Heard a new dress has come into the circus market would you like to try that?Suits your international joker role better.
This man has visited more countries abroad than he visited the villages in his own country for welfare.*Applause*.
Mr.Kalaam we need you now,a real patriot who not just talks but inspires
and in millions TO ACT not just to stay inspired or else this dalaal will sell the whole country to foreigners in name of business.Real talent needs a leader like you to guide and as Alexander the great rightly said:

Love

I am in love. Its someone you know very well.A person who is on blogger.A very talented young lady who makes me believe in love like I never knew before.
I believe we together can change the world.She is Best at what she does.I am normally a wild horse but for her I can bcome her pet!She is this she is that I don't know what what
but she is one of a kind.

Not the obvious of what you may think,some will be surprised some will appreciate while some will envy.The girl will be revealed in the next post.Suspense?Hell yeah!
Till then go on an aaawww...streak with some of my childhood photos:

The first one has my one of my most favourite t-shirts.And yes I was quite a dramebaaz back then,not that I am not today!
The second image has my Granny's favorite dress,a sherwani which she took special care to be purchased at the most exquisite shop of charminar.Yup it was my b'dday
The third was taken by forcibly waking me up from a nice sleep.My uncle was a professional photographer and yes he found a free model for his studio!I think I have this dress with me still...
That's me and my sister at a function.Just look at my eyes,
so Innocent!

Guess Who's Back!

Yes!!! Your Prince Charming is Back Baby!!!
So wow!!! Back again after some 5 months? Feels Grrrrrreatt!!!
How did i stay without writing this long? No idea whatsover!
I was just busy with work all this while so couldn't find time to post anything.
I thought of saying this excuse but no,i wasn't that busy that i couldn't take an hour out for writing
A lot happened during mean time.I have reached my silver jubilee(25th birthday).
India were out of the world cup in semis.Who in the name of  chutiya has decided to change the world cup winning team combination.Dhoni's personal tiff with Yuvraj has cost us the world cup.This is one of the main reasons why india is still with the dogs,here everyone thinks they're are a hero and ends up looking like a group of C-grade movie comedians.One example of this behaviour you'll observe is during award functions, when any eminent award is being presented people at hollywood stand all together as a respect but you see in any desi award functions you find few "i am the king/queen of the world"type fool's paradise residents supporting their tashreef still to the chair,even if it's a life time acheivement award.
Like they say tree with more fruits always bends,humbleness is the only thing people will remember of you even after dust from your bones is gone.

In other news Salman Khan is sentenced to a five yr. jail,and within a week it recoils it's announcement.
This is what was expected after making that man wait for more than 10 yrs.Personally i think the court and judiciary of india need publicity for their ego-trip. C'mon who knows how many courts are there in india or who's the judge there.Ask something about salman like how many movies he's acted with shahrukh and yes,you have the answer or how many girlfriends he had till date.Okay you can stop counting.Got it?
Though it cannot hang the Kasab aka son of a bitch immidiately though there are  images of his massacre but it can release a statement of giving a celebrity a five yr term just to prove your dominance?Indian judiciary congratulations.Though you are above every other institution in this country
but you are falling in the eyes of every indian.
Just a point to ponder,if i were to fight for salman as a lawyer i would ask the court just one thing you are punishing him for killing a person,that too when he was not in his senses.What about lakhs of lives he saves through his charity everyday.A person who can adopt an orphan girl from a road and give her life of a royalty so much so that we the public never came to know that she was not his real sister such person is under scrutiny today.Good Going man.I am not a fan of salman but a supporter of humanity and its ambasadors,either it can be salman,priyanka,palak mucchal,malala etc.

That's it for today,till we meet next time.Let the dreams in your heart and twinkle of stars in your eyes not fade away.Tadaaaaa....


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